I was too young to know about the things. Like why she was so hysterical and what it means to be dead. But it happened to that older self. I never found mother telling about herself. Maybe I was too unreliable or too childish. She came under the grip of this horrible disease called schizophrenia. Years later when I am analysing things I came to know what it might have been. I never heard of hallucination kind of things directly from her. From my little knowledge from newspaper I came to know about the disease. But I didnot know about the grave of the situation .And when I saw her she is already possessed by the disease.